I
have now reached the ripe old age of 500 blogposts, it's ok. Hold your
applause.
For
full effect, download "Soldier's Poem" by Muse, and play at maximum
volume throughout the duration of this post.
Usually
when people hit a monumental moment in their careers, it causes a moment of
reflection where they can look back on the highs and the lows, the best and the
worst, they place a set of rose-colored glasses over their eyes as they reflect
on the moments of their past.
But
blogging is not a career. Actually, it is more of a journal. And I've told you
that before. These posts aren't for you, they are for my kids. They are posts
written to see how their dad grew up. How he changed. How he experienced joy,
and how he screwed up. These posts are written so they can understand how he
became the man who raised them.
With
that being said, I have kept a written journal since I was six years old. That
sounds ludicrous, I know. Keep in mind there have been times here and there
where I haven't been very consistent. But since my senior year of high school,
I've been keeping this habit every single night. And so, to commemorate my
500th post, I'll share with you some entries from those pages. If you like it,
that's great. If you think I'm selfish and narcissistic, I really don't care.
Because remember, these words are not for you.
October
1, 1991: I went to ropes course. It was fun. I climed a ladder. My favorite
part of my body is my back. It’s strong. I like ninja turtles. they’re cool.
This is my journal.
June
24, 1994: Dear Journal, This is something I would never tell another human
being=I actually think Kasey Critchfield is pretty. She’s a !babe! I think she
actually thinks I’m cute. She’s the babe in the class.
May
19, 1995: Dear Journal, I like this girl named Krystle Bailey. I told Drew and
he called her and told her I liked her. So my life is over.
January
1, 1997: DJ, I Brock Bybee have made a few New Years resolutions. 1. To be more
mature. 2. To not drink pop. 3. To be more nice. 4. To write more. Come on in
“97”!
June
26, 1999: I hate it when you see a girl, and you know you can’t get over her.
It makes me sick. Oh well, as High Adventure says, “Deal With It”.
October
27, 2001: I’ve always thought it would be good to start writing in my journal
again.
October
28, 2001: See, you’re doing better. Just keep doing this for the rest of your
life every night, and you’ll be fine.
February
22, 2002: Well, my career in high school basketball is over. We lost to Lone
Peak tonight. Man it hurts. After the game we were all bawling. It sucks. I
can’t believe it’s over. We have laid a great foundation for the future and
it’s sad to go.
June
2, 2004: …And so it begins. My journey as a missionary for the Church of Jesus
Christ of Latter Day Saints has begun. I’m on my way.
March
7, 2005: Hey. P-Day. Today was good. I got hit by a car today. Yeah, that
wasn’t the best. I’ll tell you what, Virginia drivers suck. The lady didn’t
even look both ways when she came to a stop. It blew me away. It’s all good
though. I put a couple dents in her car.
July
22, 2005: I feel like Satan is standing in front of me and kicking me in the
nuts. Yeah, crazy. This heat is killing me. I sweat like a mother on the doors.
People all the time say, “Stay out of the heat.” Oh, okay. We’ll try! Yeah,
stupidity runs rampant.
June
2, 2006: Now that’s a date I never thought I would write in this journal. Well
at least make it to. It’s seemed so far away for so long. But now it’s come and
gone and life continues to move forward. Pretty crazy though, to think 2 years
ago what I was doing. I still read that first entry and see how young and naïve
I was.
January
1, 2008: In my mind, I kind of think New Year’s Resolutions are a joke. Why do
you have to wait until January 1, to start making changes? But as I sit here
late at night pondering the outcome of my life, I have to wonder who I will
become at this same time next year. Who will I be at the end of this book? I
need to be someone to look up to, to rely on. Whether it’s a brother, a friend
or a son, it doesn’t matter. I need to improve.
May
17, 2008: I am really at the end of my rope with these seizures. They seriously
are making it so I am unreliable in a time of my life when a lot of people are
looking up to me for help. Yeah it sure ticks me off. Dr.’s keep giving me thr
run that just covers it all. It just warms me all out. *** It is what all is
true and what will help *** me. L uckily my Grandpa is there is the man to help
the most here. I swear, if I didn’t have a man which *** worked so had. S*uch
as hm, Who know what I would do. I am grateful to have in *** my life.
May
18, 2008: The above journal entry is how confused and lost I am after having a
seizure. I had one while writing and tried to piece together my thoughts.
June
20, 2009: I got up and Grandpa and I went to breakfast at our restaurant, One
Man Band. Good times…
June
8, 2010: I got the call from H.R. today letting me know about the recruiting
job, which I did get. Which I’m stoked for! It will be awesome!
September
9, 2010: I feel like a bloated cow. Cleaned the sink at Angie’s tonight. All by
myself. Which means I ate one freaking sink of ice cream. It’s gonna take a
while to work this off.
March
13, 2011: And it’s finally over. I did the deed of breaking up with Jo today.
Somewhat of an awkward text was accidentally sent in advance, but hey, what can
you do? She was upset. I don’t blame her. Life goes on. Laura asked me if I’m
afraid of getting married. I don’t think so…
January
20, 2012: I don’t know where to begin. Grandpa died this morning. One of the
most harrowing, yet beautiful moments I have ever witnessed. I’m in shock right
now and it’s hard to understand what life will be like now. Life is strange, so
very strange. And my life will be different now that my best friend is
somewhere else.
June
4, 2013: So I bought a house today. Yes kids, you read that entry right. Kind
of crazy, I know.
July
12, 2013: I'm almost to the point where I’m in, I’m settled, I can sleep in my
new house. I must say I am fortunate to have people like Brett and C.J. and
Quin, and Jonathan to be in my life and to help me out as much as they do.
Friendships like those are what make life great.
Take
my journals out of my life and you’ve got my entire documented history on paper.
However, these entries may just be words on a screen to you because these are
not points in YOUR life. You don’t understand what my life has been like. And
likewise, I have no stinking clue what yours has been like either. But
remembering moments like these and holding on to them, well, that’s something
no one can take from you.
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